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Note: this article contains sensitive themes, including sexual assault & sexual content.\u00a0<\/span><\/i>
\nI grew up in a Christian household \u2013 great parents, decent grades in school, with a relatively easy life. I went to college about an hour from home thinking it wouldn\u2019t be that much different.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My second semester in, however, I was sexually assaulted. I told my sister two days later, who explained that I needed to tell our parents, which I refused. So she told them that they needed to drive up to my campus because something happened to me, and it was bad. <\/span><\/p>\n

At the time I was in training to become a resident assistant (RA) in a freshman dorm for my sophomore year. My parents pulled me out of training that day and told me my sister said something happened, and they needed to come up immediately. I broke down in the hallway and explained I had been assaulted. They immediately insisted I go to the hospital for a rape kit, which I refused as well. I just wanted it to be over. I didn\u2019t want to spend the next 6-12 months of my life in a trial where the guy would walk free, and I would be alone. <\/span>Still.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

Dealing with the Aftermath of Trauma<\/strong><\/h3>\n

Immediately afterward, I felt okay for a while. My first response was that the Lord was going to use this to help others, that I wasn\u2019t alone, and there was a reason it happened. Over the next five months, however, I got progressively worse. I felt alone and ashamed, like it was my fault. <\/span>Was I even sure I was assaulted? Did I ask for it? Did I not say \u201cno\u201d loud enough? <\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

It had to be my fault.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

I knew I was a believer, but I couldn\u2019t hear God. I didn\u2019t feel Him near \u2014 as if He had abandoned me in my trauma. I needed to be held and loved and told I wasn\u2019t worthless, but I didn\u2019t feel like I was getting any of that. He felt gone, and I wasn\u2019t sure where my worth was or even who defined it. I had no comfort, so I sought it elsewhere.<\/span><\/p>\n

I started my RA job in August, ready to lead a dorm full of bright, young women who were excited for college. I threw everything I had into that role, using it as my source of joy, comfort, and worth. I told myself I was doing something good, and that it all had to work out. This job was where I put all my hope and faith that my life wasn\u2019t crashing down around me. <\/span><\/p>\n

When that wasn\u2019t fulfilling me, I turned to men. I felt like giving my body to a man would make me feel worthy of something \u2013 Love? Peace? Fulfillment? I thought that sex defined who I was, and that\u2019s all that would ever define me \u2013 what my body could do for a man. I thought that by being with them, I could move past the reality that they terrified me. In reality, I hated being close to men; my mind and body revolted when they touched me \u2013 all of them: family, friends, strangers, partners. But\u00a0 I was sure that if I just pushed through, I could overcome those feelings.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Searching for Comfort<\/strong><\/h3>\n

I knew the Holy Spirit was calling me. I could feel it. I knew what I was doing was wrong \u2013 it felt wrong \u2013 but I was spiraling and had no idea how to stop. Instead of turning to the Lord, I continued to seek comfort from men. <\/span><\/p>\n

When that didn\u2019t work, I sought comfort from a woman. <\/span><\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t emotionally connect with men anymore, and this woman was kind, gentle, and accepting \u2013 trauma and all. It didn\u2019t scare me to be close to her. I longed deeply for a connection with someone, and thought I could find it in her. I wanted to be held and loved and found worthy, despite what had happened to me and my choices afterward. I never had a desire to date women, but I was so lost in sin and pain, that instead of turning to the Lord, I went to her because I didn\u2019t know how to say no. I didn\u2019t know how to stop. <\/span><\/p>\n

When I failed to respond to the Lord to come back home \u2014 literally and figuratively \u2014 He chased harder.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

If you had asked me back then, I thought my life just kept getting worse. In reality, God was saving me. In the span of two months, I lost my RA job that I loved. My parents found out about my relationship and stopped paying for my schooling, trying to force me to come home. The school kicked me out because they weren\u2019t getting money. In my stubbornness and anger with my parents, I refused to go home, couch surfing at friend\u2019s houses instead. <\/span><\/p>\n

I blocked everyone who cared for me \u2013 everyone who stood in the gap for me. I fell into such a deep state of depression I could barely function. But beautiful and life-giving redemption was around the corner.<\/span><\/p>\n

The Power of God\u2019s Love<\/strong><\/h3>\n

It was a Sunday morning, almost one year later, and I was over all of it. I was lost, broken, hopeless, suicidal. I sat on the bathroom floor with a knife to my wrists, sobbing out to God. <\/span><\/p>\n

Why! Everything that has happened to me has passed through Your hands, and then You leave me?! Are You even there? Are You even listening? Do You even care or love me, because You don\u2019t have a lot of time now before we meet face to face.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

I heard Him speak in that moment.\u00a0 \u201cI love you. I have always loved you, and I still love you.\u201d <\/span><\/p>\n

I heard His voice like He was in the room with me. He said it again:\u00a0 \u201cI love you. I have always loved you, and I still love you.\u201d I don\u2019t know how long I sat there, but I knew then He had always been there, and I could finally breathe. <\/span><\/p>\n

He rescued me that day. He met me in my despair, anger, and hopelessness and reminded me of who He is. While I wish it was all easy sailing after that, I spent the next several years on a journey toward healing. The Lord slowly restored the relationships between me and my family, and while God and I are continually working on the shame and guilt part, He has provided me with community and support that I didn\u2019t think I deserved.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Today, I\u2019m thankful to say I have meaningful relationships, a renewed ability to trust God and others, and the opportunity to use my passion for loving and serving others as an administrative assistant at the Oviedo campus. God redeemed all my mistakes and gave me a chance for hope. That\u2019s just who He is \u2013 a God who rejoices when His prodigal children find their way home again.<\/span>
\n<\/i><\/p>\n

Interested to learn more about the ministry of <\/span><\/i>Grace<\/span><\/i><\/a>, explore our <\/span><\/i>Care and Counseling Center<\/span><\/i><\/a>, or join us for <\/span><\/i>Easter<\/span><\/i><\/a>? We would be honored to <\/span><\/i>meet you<\/span><\/i><\/a>.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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